Rubbish this week.

I was called one of the best cause i finish my work and most others dont.
and for that, I got 2 extra day off.

Nice.

Some thoughts.

Recently,

I’ve been at home when I’m out of camp. Doing nothing.
Life feels so boring with this kind of lack of freedom.
But with the lack of freedom, I’m very free.
I wake up without knowing what to do and even if I know, I still have nothing to do in the end.

I’m tired of asking people out cause they’re forever not free. or even if they’re free, they will still be not free when the time comes nearer.
People have stopped asking me out.
My msn don’t pop out as often even though I’m online almost every night for at least an hour on weekdays.
My phone stop ringing and text messages stop coming.

I still can’t remember what’s the ass muscle called for IM site.
I still feel sucky about me cannot find one big guy vein for blood taking but the MO just palpate and draw without difficulties in like 30 sec.
A patient asked me whether diclofenec cause drowsiness and I can’t answer without referring.
I find the this points pretty worrying cause it’s less than 1 year and I’ve already forgotten simple stuff.

Sigh..
Life sucks. I need a walkthrough to move on.

new year

In a few hours time, 2009 will be over. Must say that it’s a pretty interesting year with lots of up and downs.

I entered 2009
I finish my PRCP.
I liked someone but things didn’t work out.
I graduated from nyp.
I got my nursing license.
I got a job in sgh.
I landed in w76 and meet alot of nice colleagues.
I got my ns enlistment letter and took 720 days of no pay leave. 531 more days.
I did my BMT in Quebec coy, Tekong.
I leave Tekong and go Nee Soon Camp to do my Basic Medic Course.
I graduated from BMC and landed in 9 SIR in Maju Camp.
And, I’m leaving 2009.

I didn’t feel like I accomplished much. It’s just the same old me living in and out everyday.
Oh well, hope 2010 will be more interesting. My hopes not high though. Let it be good.

Happy new year to me.

If you asked me,

I seriously have no idea what to do. So lost. I don’t even understand or knows what’s going on this days.

I’ve been ignored, I’ve been forgotten, I’ve been deleted.

Oh well. So much for being friends.

If that’s the way it is, bye.

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FML, can’t wait to get out of there.

Took my practical exams on wednesday. It’s like terrible. The worst practical exams I ever took.

 

Knew who my assessor the day before. Nobody from my platoon actually pass from him before.

Everybody been telling us good luck. Everyone have high expectation from us. Considering our group are made up of 3 SN, 1 EN, 1 optometrist and another guy who have no medical background. But seriously, it’s pretty demoralizing when we knew who our assessor was. But somehow, we convince ourself. It can’t be that bad right? As long as we got the knowledge, how bad can it be?

 

Well, somehow, we’re proven wrong. It’s not about the knowledge. It’s how stupid our scenario can be. Well, my buddy took the exam first and me being his assistant. It was totally FUCK up.

Got fuck cause I argued that venturi and nebulizer mask is not the same.

Kneel for more than 1 and half hour, bagging the casualty cause need to give assisted breathing. and oh ya, the casualty, didnt get a good life either. He was made to head tilt chin lift for the same amount of time. If we dont do this, our medic (I was assisting my friend for his exams) will fail.

All this before even my exams start.

Bombard us with the stupid know-it- all face. But, smoke through his stuff. Like who the hell give IM insulin.  or ECG is not to measure heart rhythm. and wonders what other stupid stuff he thought my other 3 friends. Bet he make himself look stupid not knowing that he was examining nurses. And ya, he didnt know we are nurses.

 

Yesterday went for ESP (emergency surgical procedure) class. The guy who taught the lecture was also looking down on nurses. Making fun of us. I don’t really care but why are they looking down on us. Yes, we may not know certain surgical procedure like venepuncture and how it’s exactly done. But it’s not within our field too and we dont see it everyday.

 

FML and i cant wait to get out of there. 4 more weeks of this stupid shit course. 3 years of diploma is just a piece of paper and the green uniform just take priority.

 

 

 

Now, I want some of my life back. Who want go watch 2012?

lub dub lub dub lub dub

Been busy lately. But I’ve no idea what I’ve been busy with. Lols.

Medic course been a slack but, the knowledge gain there, need to be careful. Sometimes, I wonder whether my diploma is bought in pasar malam cause 3 years of dip doesnt even take priority over 3 mths of medic course. Oh well, finishing soon next mth. Just need to hang in there! Then another load of new shits. I’ve requested to be posted out of sg. Hopefully that place got intake this batch. If not, hopefully they put me in MMI at NUH or SAF ward in AH. I miss hospital work! 585 more days!!

Recently, I think I’ve been coughing alot. So went to the dr, told him I’ve been coughing about 2 mth plus plus plus. His face, priceless. Asked me to go take cxr but then, polyclinic is closing so no choice next time then take. Dr asked me go report sick and see the camp MO. But, report sick? We shall see about it.

Lately, my LL seems sucky and down with not even single drop of luck. But I think, part of my heart just revive and start beating again

upset :(

after month of cancellation,waiting for each other to be free, we finally meeting again.

however, i got lock up in my own house. I cant find my key. I cant get out of my house. My own house, my own key, gone missing. it was there this morning. I remember putting it on the table. Someone must have took it by accident. But why must it be today? Why can’t it be tomorrow? or yesterday? or when I don’t even have anything to do at all? why?

im upset. like terribly upset. few weeks back, our date was cancel due to her work schedule and so was the previous and previous time. Something terrible must just happen. why?

Is it a sign? a sign we cant meet.

I dont know. I feel terrible. Terribly upset. Terribly frustrated.

and i’m sorry that my first post for very very long while must be this.

for those who think im dead

im still alive. just can’t find time to write a decent entry. will write one before this week ends. promise (:

MLTR is coming and I want go watch!!!!!!!!

WTFBBQ!!

4th sept, a friday. I want go see!! How??

Can book out in time and catch it at 8pm at faber?

Give me a day off OC.

please please please! Then u can confine me all u want. I dont care. I just want to catch this thing.

Sigh..

anyway, if anybody interested to watch, just text me la.. If really got someone to watch with, then will use plan B to book out early.